Busy June

My garden is a mess, weeds and pots everywhere. OK, my fault for not tidying up after every job I do. And the weeding, well I always teach clients to weed little and often and keep on top of them. At home I have not pulled a weed out for two weeks. Obviously the places where I work I tidy before I finish, not sure why I can't do it at home. I know I should finish a gardening task completely before starting the next one, just seem to be unable to do that at the moment. So many little jobs in my head and the evidence is beginning to show in my garden. June is such a busy month, we all know that. It's just that sometimes my own space overwhelms me. Never feel it at work, I have lists, and a Ops plan in my head, but the guilt of rushing jobs at home makes me wonder if I am any good at gardening for myself. The RHS has trained me to be the best, I feel like I have let them down this month with mine.

Life is busy, gardening is constantly in my mind, day and night. Same feeling I remember as when I fell in love with someone but they never told me if they felt the same. Frustration, love, guilt, anger. I need too satisfy my mind this week or scream. So the endless tip trips in my tiny car, washing trays, tidying up, and pulling up bindweed must be done.

  I was close to tears yesterday, thinking of everything I needed to do, but then nature thanked me for my inability to keep up with my overgrown herbaceous border.